Keep your Arms and Legs inside the ride at all times....

Oh how I was hoping to get off this roller coaster ride! Unfortunately, it looks like it may just be the beginning of a lifetime of ups and downs.

The results are in and apparently....
this is the new face of MS.
I had been calling the Dr.'s office for the results of my Spinal Tap and Blood work since last Thursday, and was unable to get anyone to call me back. Thanks to my dear and long time friend Paige, who used to work with me at the Neurology Clinic, I was finally able to get my results today after she took matters in to her own hands and texted the Doc!!
Thank you Paige, you have been a lifesaver lately.....
I owe you, and love you!
They worked me in this morning.....
which told me right there I was headed for news,
otherwise, he would have just told me over the phone.
Dr. V came in, sat down, and got straight to the point.
There are 3 levels of MS diagnosis.
No MS in Brain, spinal fluid and blood= No MS Period!
No MS in Brain but suggestive in the spinal fluid=Probable MS.
MS in the brain and Spinal Fluid=Definite MS.

I fall in the Probable MS Diagnosis, because my Brain is clear. However, other than my brain being free at this point, I will be treated as though it is full blown MS because it's in my spinal fluid. Dr. V feels like because we are catching it early,
it is best for me to start taking the shots of interferons immediately.
Doing this may keep it at bay.
I prepared for this.
I thought about this and how I would react.
I told myself it would be fine and I would get through it.
But until it was actually said out loud and
we began discussing the possibility of any future babies....
and side effects of flu like symptoms after daily shots,
along with possible swings of depression -
I decided I wasn't ready to hear this news,
and I'm not sure I feel fine about it.
I'm scared. I'm frustrated. I'm overwhelmed.
How's that for honesty?
Obviously I am only in the 7th hour of
playing this out in my mind.
I'm sure things will look and feel better, even by tomorrow.
But for now, my heart hurts and so does my head.
So many emotions.
Because Dr. V is not covered by our insurance,
we will be heading in to another neurologist the first week of May.
I am actually excited to get a second opinion.
Dr. V. is on the anti-side of things when it comes to my beliefs.
When it comes to science, I trust him whole-heartedly.
When it comes to the spirituality of having children,
I was not in love with his answer.
So, back to my knees I go, in search of more answers.
Back to my knees for more peace and healing.
Thank you for all of the love and support.
I'm sorry to have to send you all here to get the full update,
but I took a few phone calls today,
and can't seem to keep my emotions in check right now.
I figured this might be the easiest way to fill you all in.
I owe you that much for all the prayers and fasting you have done in my behalf.
I am forever grateful.
Dr. V told me today I should thank my nephew
for helping me catch this early.
So, thank you Zachy,
and
Thanks to my Father in Heaven for...
guiding this every step of the way.