A time for learning....

I did it! Today Trav and I dropped off our boys to their first day of school! The beginning of 2nd and 4th grade! How is that possible? So what did I do? For the first time in 6 "First Days" I didn't cry! (At least not at the school!) That is a major feat for me....I usually get teary-eyed as we walk toward the building! But today, we were in such a scramble, because I had forgotten to get everything together for Ty's teacher regarding his peanut allergies. Not sure why that snuck up on me so fast....but it did, and now I was in a pinch! Thanks to my sweet friend Heidi, I was able to get the letter to the parents printed and ready to go. Trav ran to Walmart to purchase the box of Fruit Snacks we send every year, 'cause inevitably someone will show up at some point in the year with a Birthday treat loaded with peanuts, and Ty will have those so he doesn't have to go without! Darn Peanuts!! Anyway, we finally made it to the school, with time to spare, only to show up late by the time we realized Ty was the only 2nd grade class not in the 2nd grade hall, and Garrett is the last portable clear outside!! Oh well, we made it....... snapped a few shots and left them there to be educated! (We hope!)(The house is all her's again, and she couldn't be happier!)

I have thought a lot the last couple of weeks about school starting and the boys growing up. There is a side of me that has been waiting anxiously for school to start (89% side of me!), so there would be no more fighting, no more "I'm Bored's," no more "It's too hot's!," no more "This is the worst summer ever's," etc. But the other side of me is recognizing that with each new school year comes the realization that we are just another year closer to them growing up and being out on their own. That is the side of me that brings the emotions with it! As I was driving home today I thought about the boys in school learning about the things they will need to get through everyday life. I was grateful that part of my life is accomplished, til I realized that that part of life seems easier than the learning I am going through now. I have been struggling lately, as we are now approaching the time that we were supposed to be having our baby. The due date was the 17th, but I usually take Dr. Healy's offer to have my babies a week early, which would be right about now! A few of our friends were expecting around the same time. Some are now holding their babies and others anxiously awaiting their arrival. I was thinking I was dealing with it all pretty well, until August came and brought with it a ton of feelings! I am hoping I will learn quickly what it is the Lord wanted us to learn from all of this, maybe I never will. Many have offered advice, thoughts and insight. Some of what we've been told, I have chosen to forget, knowing the intentions were good, but none-the-less, not what I've wanted to hear. Some has been helpful. The advice I have chosen to listen to today, and the point I am trying to make in writing all of this down, is that the Lord has given us 3 beautiful children, who are here now and in need of our love and attention. We may or may not have others join our family, even though the desire is there. I have to be willing to leave it in the Lord's hands and take each day at a time. If it is meant to be, it will happen......as hard as that is to learn and grasp! So, for now, I will be grateful for what I have been given, rather than focusing on what I wish we had been given. Garrett and Ty you are lucky that I've had this whole thought process this morning, cause I was going to make you walk home, but now I think I will come pick you up and give you a ride! Happy first day of school my little boys......as we continue to learn and grow together this year and always!